Improving reception (Am) Establish connection (E7) Cultivate awareness, I'm hitting the ceiling (Am) The seeker dissolving it's mind (E7) Bowing to reflection (Am) Reversing inspection (E7) Highjacking awareness, I'm cut off from feeling (Am) The sky is a rendered real-time (E7) The hope is that I'm not just making it up, I have (D7) Known what I don't know for such a long while (A#7, G7-Gm) The road is being rendered in real time (F, C) I'm not the car that I drive (Cm, G7) 'Cause when I close my eyes (F, C) There's nothing but the Light (Cm, A#m) Your loneliness is taking place inside your mind (C, Gm-C) It's physiology, it's your biology (Dm, G7 repeat) The gaping hole was never put there for your light (C, Gm-C) It's where the darkness goes, don't try to snuff it out (Dm, G7 repeat) The Holy Ghost is all you've ever known (C, Gm) The system is a joke, your always known (C, Gm) The demons here are scared you'll learn the truth (A, F#m) They're all more scared of you (G, G/G#) The Holy Ghost is all you've ever known (Am, F, Em) Call it your nature, some call it home (D/F#, Em, repeat) I call it Being, it's all I know (D/F#, Em, repeat) I'm done with seeking, I'm on my own (D/F#, Em, repeat) I'm done with teachers, I'll be my own (D/F#, Em, D, A# dissonance chord) The schema of my crown's not monotone (A#, Gm, Dm, A7) The glory of my soul's not in my bones (A#, C, D/F#, A7) I think I've grown (Fm...) Crying "Fill me!” (C, Em) Gorgeous souls laid bare (F, Csus) Dying "Kill me! (C, G/G#) I would rather die than think I'm (Dm, Am-A7) lost again (Dm, G7sus...) (C)

Caught a bug, does a bug have rights Saw a life, wasn’t mine to take Felt my chest, let it fill with air Tasted life, as it left my lips Wanted more, so I shed my name Lost the score, wasn’t mine to take Uttered dumb, really foolish things Felt the weight, words have gravity I AM not a word, phrase, concept, image, or idea Utter not a word, here, leave your language at the door Can your mind calculate my heartbeat Is the sound just the rhythm of meaningless things I love you, even if you don’t know what that means My heart-space, the human race Is not a, commodity, Honestly, all your theology, causes calamity Is not the sanity that you seek Call me what you will I’ll respond to anything I now know how to think I AM not any thing, I do not need to breath I’m the taste of Life, that can taste of things I’m the feeling Sun, sharing Light with Me I’m the telling of, and the actor in All the narratives that have ever been
 Look at Me, I AM the Sun
Feast your eyes, and taste of Light Take yourself into to the Now That primordial secret sound

I was carted off to GOD knows where Cm, Gm-Dm It was scary, but I was not scared F-F7, Dm-Bb Like the answer with no questionnaire Cm, Gm-Dm I abandoned myself on a dare F-F7, Dm-Bb I was caring but I did not care F, Gm-F/F# I decided to let go F-Fm You out there on your own, no memories at all C/E-Csus, Dm-Am, G7 The far side of the veil ignores your call, your shadows growing tall F-Fm, Am-Gsus I’ll cut my eyes out just to feel You F, Am-G I’ll throw my food out just to taste you F, Am-G I’ll carry burdens just to know two memories of You F, Am-G, G/Gb, F, C Carry my mind out to sea like an C, Em- Anchor that takes it so deep that it’s F, G/G# (e.g.E7) Never a problem again, it’s the original sin F, Em-, F, Em- Just look at the shape that we’re in Am-C, Gsus I wrote your name on some cellophane last night G, Am-Bm, C-Bm-C, D/F# My heart is in your living room tonight G, Am-Bm, C-Bm-Cm, D Castrate me, I would rather die alive G, Am-Bm, C-Bm-C, D/F# Than live another lifeless life contrived, prescribed G, Am-Bm, C-Bm-Cm, D, Em, D/F#, //TRANSITION: Gm, D#m, G#m, C#maj, 
 D, E, F#m, F#m E A, B, C#m, C#m Don’t you dare try and tell me that you understand what I’m going through I had a plan, I had a plan Don’t we bear all of the responsibility, I will never say I’m just a man, just a man Won’t we fair better if we listen to the story of our enemies, over there, over there Aren’t you scared that we’re living in a video game, got carted off, to GOD knows where
To GOD knows where
 I built a massive pile, from the content of my mind C#m, F#7, B, A-G#7 I stacked it up real high, and I set it all on fire C#m, F#7, A-A/A#, B-B/C, C# Carry my mind out to sea like an C#, Fm- Anchor that takes it so deep that it’s F#, G#/A (e.g.F7) Never a problem again, it’s the original sin F#, Fm-, F, Fm- Just look at the shape that we’re in A#m-C#, G#sus

Carry me into the night I’m crawling back into the fight Take me further from the Light I will be alright I never saw you standing there Dripping wet with your despair You ran away to god knows where I thought that I had died I gave up too soon, so exposed in front of you I’m not brave enough to… To let you go, I know you’re not a ghost But I still feel you in my room, you’d know exactly what to do… I’m lost on you Give me up so it can die Let me go so I can try To find the meaning in this life So, it’ll be alright I never wanted to make you cry But these feelings came alive And then you walked out of my life I’m sure that you are fine But, I gave up too soon, because I thought that we were through And, now I just refuse… To let you go, I know you’re not a ghost But I still feel you in my room, you’d know exactly what to do I know that I’m supposed to know, exactly how to let you go But I still see you in my phone, and I don’t want to be alone… I’m lost on you

Farewell to all that I knew, it’s all a puff of smoke (A-Am, G-Gm, F#m, Em-F#m, D) The haunting melody, it captured me (D-D2, G-Gaug) The paradoxical reality that I came to see, I was not me (D-D2, G, Bm-A7) After I had been socialized to think this way, and not be swayed (D-B/#, Bm-A, G, G/G#) After I had been educated, reprogrammed, I contemplated sand (D-B/#, Bm-A, G, G/G#) I felt everything shifting beneath my feet, still asleep (Bm, A-F#, G, E7sus) (oh, it’s no matter; oh, it’s no matter) (Bm, F#, G, E7sus) I saw the glimmer of a tidal wave, still far away (Bm, A-F#, G, E7sus) (oh, it’s no matter; oh, it’s no matter) (Bm, F#, G, E7sus) I’m falling, it feels so similar to me (D-D/Db, Bm-A) Crawling, because of the pull of the (G-A, G-A/A#) Gravity, a fish never knows that she’s in (D-D/Db, Bm-A) Water, but I can hear you calling (G-A, G-A/A#) —————————————— The taunting parody, is mocking me (D-D2, G-Gaug) The mind that judged it as calamity, I’ve come to see, he was not me (D-D2, G, Bm-A7) After I had been socialized to play this way inside this game (D-B/#, Bm-A, G, G/G#) After I had been educated, reprogrammed, I contemplated man (D-B/#, Bm-A, G, G/G#) Is this everything that I am meant to see, is this “free” (Bm, A-F#, G, E7sus) (oh, it’s no matter; oh, it’s no matter) (Bm, F#, G, E7sus) One flaw: the swimmer and the flyer are the same, inflicting pain (Bm, A-F#, G, E7sus) (identified with the chatter; now I’m falling off the ladder) (Bm, A-F#, G, Em) I’m falling, it feels so similar to me (D-D/Db, Bm-A) Crawling, because of the pull of the (G-A, G-A/A#) Gravity, a fish never knows that she’s in (D-D/Db, Bm-A) Water, but I can hear you calling (G-A, G-A/A#) Farewell to all that I knew, it’s all a puff of smoke (A-Am, G-Gm, F#m, Em-F#m, D)

Creativity is the only sign of Life there is Creativity is the only sign of Life there is I caught a glimpse of You in the moonlight, it wasn’t that old man-made thing It was the Light of my reflection bouncing back into my space
I’ve been refracting my own story, I didn’t get it right at first The people here are fucked as always, thinking that their careers and their cars… are… anything, not a thing Everything is not a thing at all (everything is not a thing, everything is not a thing)
Nowhere is somewhere after all Here and Now is all there ever was It’s all there ever will be, my friends Creativity is the only sign of Life there is I picked it up when “I” took a back seat It wasn’t that old “new age” thing It was the Light of my Awareness making Love to everything I’ve been reflecting my own glory, I won’t speak of the demiurge People think they can have it both ways, bowing down has never made you clear A god… is… not… anything, not a thing Everything is not a thing at all (everything is not a thing, everything is not a thing)
Nowhere is somewhere after all Here and Now is all there ever was It’s all there ever will be, my friends Creativity is the only sign of Life there is Creativity is the only sign of Life there is

Justice is no-thing, but grasping for control; mind crying “it’s not fair!” “If only ‘God’ was there!” Conscience, wake up! I AM Here Darkness is no-thing, but the absence of Light; Heart lying “I’m not Here.”
“If only Love was near.” Conscience, wake up! I AM Here Rich soil, dig deep, tilled ground, firm feet
Loose hands, soft eyes, warm blood, can you feel me (Tear out your eyeballs, so you can really see, witness the shifting states, Lovely, wake up! You’re the Seer, can you feel me) Follow your ego, you’re never on your own, even when you’re alone Nature throws you a bone, Loveless, wake up! CONSCIENCE! Rich soil, dig deep, tilled ground, firm feet
WAKE UP! Tear out your eyeballs, so you can really see; witness the shifting states You don’t wish to escape; Lovely, wake up! You’re the Seer

When I came to you were standing above me (B, G/G#, G, F#) Not at all concerned, you attempted to hide your smirk (B, G/G#, G, F#)
What a jerk, I was the master of tasks, you were the (G, A, Bm, D-A) King of the masks, but then the telephone rang (G, G/G#, A, A/A#) It was not who you thought, maybe coincidence (Bm, A, G, A)
I don’t believe in luck; a synchronicity (Bm, D, G, G/G#) Ending the karmic leg, so to speak (F, G, Am, C)
You were attempting to carve out, a brand new trajectory (F, G, G#, A#) How did I become the queen of authenticity (Cm, Gm, Fm…) I was never a fan, of being a man (C, Em, C, Em)
Why do I get so nervous, why do I need so much practice (F, Am-G, F, Am-G, F-Em) Why can’t we get it the first time (C, F) It always feels like the last time (C, F) My knowledge grows like a spiral (why can’t we get it the first time) (C, F) A backward ladder with land mines (it always feels like the last time) (C, F) (G7…) If Jesus took me down this fucked up road (are you messing with me) (C, F) Then why are there so many potholes (C, F) I think I’m starting to figure out the rules (are you messing with me) (C, F) I’m in charge, and so am I (C, F) and so am I, and so am I… (G, Am, G, Fm) (instrumental) (G, C, G, C) (end) (Em, Dm C)

It was just in the nick of time that my eyesight failed We were just so ill-advised, like children drinking milk The last stretch was embarrassing, we were more sad than mad The door was locked, but the key was still underneath the mat The carpet smelled of alcohol, a candle was still lit
Our white curtains stained tobacco-brown, identities still fit Those times we ate breakfast on the porch, silence seemed so fitting at the time I could’ve said about a hundred different things, but it was never the right time My own pride kept me from the full experience My own Love hid behind a wall of experience
We both held back mostly ‘cause we both lacked experience We both stood still gaining invaluable experience Hands are the new eyes It was just in the nick of time that you were there for me And, we moved so carelessly as if we’d just first met I was so vulnerable, it’s funny how things turn out …The door was still locked, but key was knowing who to keep out My own pride kept me from the full experience My own Love hid behind a wall of experience
We both held back mostly ‘cause we both lacked experience We both stood still gaining invaluable experience Hands are the new eyes

You opened up a new document the blankest of a page from which to capture the faintest obligation Upon the whitest of canvas you saturated two-tones The color red, and the subtle hint of gold You opened up a new season ‘bout which nature seemed to rage from which she voiced some kind of growl, without hesitation Upon the widest of a hope you opened up the possi- Bility of you and I hailing from Old (we are)
 
So old I swear we’ve done this before I told you so But I won’t rub it in 
So cold This planet takes you under I think you know
All this will happen again I made you promise not to tell anyone about the truth
That We are both royalty with secret code in our veins
Upon the brightest of them all we’ve made impressions you know The language dead, we must integrate the soul You opened up the possibility of changing our own fate From which you rewrote every verse, and all instrumentation Without the slightest of a clue you opened up the possi- Bility of, finding out the Truth as we go The sound was seen for lightyears, the crashing of the ether The energetic transmutation rippled beyond measure The taste was something subtle, surprising, and unnerving The smell was almost absent, the openness was yearning I was there with You, You were there with Us There was no illusion, everything was just Everything was freshly sprouting roots from which to grow Marrow in the flowers, diamonds in our bones Making up, making up for lost time, noticing the absent of time itself Made a mess of it all, looking or closure, making things right Waking up, waking up, there’s no “mine,” noticing the beauty of life itself Never stood so tall, crossing the borders, blurring the lines restoring order, the passage of time Carrying an imprint, planted like a seed Cashing in too early, learning how to need Learning how to forget, forgetting how to be Shacking up with ill-intent, the sun would dry the beach I was there with everything, We were there with You Placing all our bets too soon meant somebody was screwed Everything was lovely but everyone seemed numb Sorrow in the wineskins, and absinthe in our thumbs Making up, making up for lost time, noticing the absent of time itself Made a mess of it all, looking or closure, making things right Waking up, waking up, there’s no “mine,” noticing the beauty of life itself Never stood so tall, crossing the borders, blurring the lines restoring order, the passage of time

It’s you again, the clever one, always on Look at me, I’m falling for this again A different face, but the same damn qualities A different place, but the same set of properties I’ll dive again, into my heart, deeper still I’ll climb again, I’m living for lessons learned A different space, but the same damn feelings A different sky, but the same set of of frequencies I’ve traveled, from my here to there I’ve set up everywhere I’ve studied what it’s like To be everything The distance, from my here to there Is virtual at best I’ve studied for a test That’s impossible to fail 
It’s me again, the darker one, always on Don’t look at me, don’t fall for this shit again A different face, but the same damn character A different state, but we’re still the same, only One I’ll cry again, but instead of grief, it’s for joy I’ll smile again, but instead of fear, it’s for love A different grace, but the same image in the mirror A different taste, but the sound in my ears

Pressing on through that awkward space Slipping into that secret place Ripping off every article Making out, grease the wheels, its late You've got hills for me to climb I've got a rope, hold on, I'll take you there We don't have to stay the same I will change you, you will change me too //CHORUS 1 Underneath these urges I just want to be held And I thought I would never meet you So I held myself (held myself) And I thought I would never meet you So I helped myself Giving it up cause you're going down Talking about our childhoods Feeling your way as we roll around Making it last cause it feels so good I've got heights for you to climb You've got a cave, you know, I will explore We don't have to tell a soul I will let you, you will let me too (INSTRUMENTAL) //BRIDGE As daunting as it seemed, U accepted being alone Then I found out you existed, synchronistic moments mystics spun around I won't dodge out, I'll stick around As daunting as it seemed, I accepted being alone Then you realized you missed it, masochistic moments tantrics spun around I won't hold out, I'll play around (You won't miss out, I will go down) //CHORUS 2 Underneath these urges I just want to be held And I thought I would never meet you So I held myself (held myself) And I thought I would never meet you So I helped myself

We wanted more than our fathers handed down We tasted unconditional, original (captivate me, castrate me, make me see that underneath me is everything) Inside this heart is all this Love, where’d it come from?
I died before my soul was born, I still feel torn 
I showed up for myself, and there I was My inner community had been waiting 
We won’t be fuel for another civil war We’re making friends with the other side, we will not divide (captivate me, castrate me, make me see that underneath me is everything)

Let your hearts drop, let the river flow, everybody Let the bombs fall, let this world go It feels like death has won (let’s just end it all) Are We the only Ones Let your minds fill, let your hearts go, everybody
Let the bombs drop, let the world know It feels like Hope is gone (let’s just mend it all) Are we the only ones I’m on a plane, the carving of space has settled into Everything else, I’m nothing if not a little into Finding out what We are doing here (finding out what we’re doing here) 
Let the men drop, let the bullets fly, everybody Let the music stop, let the world get what it’s
Always fighting for (always fighting for) Are we the only ones Let the blood pool, let the river flow, everybody Let the wheels on this thing burn itself to the Goddamn birthing soil (goddamn birthing soil) Are we the only ones Let your hearts drop, let the river flow, everybody Let the bombs fall, let this world go It feels like death has won I’m on a plane, the carving of space has settled into Everything else, I’m nothing if not a little into Finding out what We are doing here (finding out what we’re doing here)

I’m holding on, the fleeting of love is temporary All of the states have proven themselves so arbitrary Living out what we know we could be (living out what we know to be) 
Climbing out of this bed that we’ve made

Calling for you now, distant stars collide Sitting with me now, distance satellite Shedding layers still, peeling back the lies Feeling for you now, letting in the light Calling for you now, you're not responding Getting off the couch, no corresponding  Mapping in the deep, the ink is running I don't speak the language, but I could see this coming Calling for you now, you're not responding Getting off the couch, no corresponding  Mapping in the deep, the ink is running I don't speak the language, but I can see the stunning Image in the mirror I can't see my eyesight Smashing up against the ceiling Digging into the feeling I'm coming out of "love and light," I'll live into my own The winter now is white and brightly showing me my home The coming of the the wave of love is different than I thought The ones who claimed to know the way are climbing to their thrones, undone  Nothing as it seems, life is but a dream Faking suicides, covering up their scheme Bleeding days and nights, alternate timelines Splitting destiny, forest for the trees 

We are all trying to figure ourselves out We must play by the rules, we work within the ruleset Don’t we know ourselves yet The pain in my leg is not terminal The brain in my head is virtual I’m not looking to escape this Our Love is uncreated Before time Everything was static I’m in line, I’m following the pattern
I’m inclined to ignore all the panic But, every time I open up my heart I seem to die a bit more You’re not the answer that my story was looking for I’m not the character that I had hoped to be some day I’m just the Stillness in which everything decays 
I’m just the Space in which nothing agrees to stay We are all lying, the music is not too loud We collect all the jewels, we’re hoping to be shipwrecked Don’t we owe ourselves that The can in my spokes is turning heads
I plan all my jokes, I’m turning red I’m not shaking down the makeshift I’ll coast until the stakes drift And, your sign makes you act erratic I’m on time, and regret is for manics I’m a bride forced into a pageant But, every time I listen to my heart I tend to shine a bit more You’re just the fiction that my ego was looking for I’m not the hero that I had always hoped to be I’m just the sand working diligently to recede And, like the sand I surrender to the waves
I’m just he Stillness in which everything decays I’m just the wind blowing everything away I’m just the Space in which all things refuse to stay